Hello dear readers! I had a set back and found myself in bed for the last three weeks. I went through deep moral and philosophical introspection. A flare up after doing so well, seemed cruel to say the least. I went through alternating bouts of self pity, especially for facing this illness alone. I came to contradictory conclusions. I realized that I don't want to live like this - who does? But then realized I have no choice. I will have to learn to live like this. And I'm not really alone, we will all face this type of illness at some point in our life. It is not the illness, but rather our reaction to it that is important. Meaning, I will need to learn to harness my strength, dignity and go on. What does this mean? That I'm never going to get better. That's not a sad statement of resignation, but rather a proclamation of peace and acceptance, a letting go of denial. In the following days there will be more discussion on this topic, as well as facing chronic illness (and or caretaking of someone who is chronically ill) from a Buddhist perspective.
For now, since I'm behind in blogging, I'd like to show you more art that I've been working on. I'm a little afraid, since it seems to eccentric. But, I think I have a track record for putting it all out there, so I'm not going to stop now.
As you know, I've had to find "clean" ways to create. I create because I must, there's just no other explanation for it. I can no longer tolerate many of the toxins I dearly love (acrylic, spray paint). Since everything looks like sculpture to me, I've been enjoying working on various assemblages, many of them temporary, a nod to the Buddhist teaching of impermanence. Oftentimes, I dismantle the assemblage as soon as it's been photographed. I've also been incorporating my interest in upcycling and my concern for the over abundance of detritus in the hood. The comic book will feature various superheroes cleaning up the ghetto, having fun and using recycled materials to make their home sacred and beautiful.
Do you remember my Detritus Robot? She will be appearing in the comic book, and also in a video I am working on. The video is painstaking work, however, as I have no idea what I'm doing. As always, that's too many words. Art should stand alone, it doesn't need explained. But we are human, and humans are wired for attempting to make sense of our reality. For now, here are some proofs from this project. I'm pretty excited about it. I started making little worlds and decided to incorporate some of my toy collection
First World, Admiring the Cross
This little world is perhaps the most melancoly, because vestiges of former beauty still remain. A cross made from copper and nails is a prominent feature. The twine is an attempt to create wind, like a tumble weed has clung to the cross.
Sudowoodo. Little clay aliens by Robert A. Krause of RAK Graphics. Ninja by Shawnimals for Kidrobot.
Second World, Special Forces Fight Detritus
Third World, Where Detritus Is Upcycled
Originally I intended this work to be an installation piece, but I love the idea of a comic book. That's my first installment. Stay tuned for more.
All photos by Peggy.